Sometimes the silence guides our minds
So move to a place so far away
The goose bumps start to raise
The minute that my left hand meets your waist
And then I watch your face
Put my finger on your tongue
‘Cause you love to taste, yeah
I am so excited for fall! The apple and pumpkin and cinnamon smells, the pretty leaves, the crunchy walks, and not to mention the cooler weather as an excuse to get all dressed up in layers and thick cardigans. And the holidays!
I had this crazy dream. I was going to work as normal. Driving down the road, there was a sign that said no outlet or something. I didn’t think about it too much and kept driving.
The road came to an end and was completely blocked off by a metal fence. Behind the fence a tornado or giant storm had ripped apart the town – there was rubble everywhere and the sky was still stormy and dark. The buildings were in complete disarray and I felt extremely uneasy.
And then it was kind of funny because I was frantic trying to call into work letting them know I was going to be late.
Which means life is about to get real stressful real quick. Though it does seem like I dodged the storm, but let’s see.
I’m in another mild depression, but I’ll pull through. He’s been discussing job prospects and Seattle a lot. The idea of it is exciting to think about. But the thought of moving across the country to pursue a lifestyle and relationship that’s this rocky is troubling.
He gave me a really, really bad anxiety attack, and I haven’t been able to recover from it. I feel so defeated.
“There is no comfort in the growth zone, and there is no growth in the comfort zone”
So I have officially finished my first week at my new job and what a relief! Not going to lie – a few times I thought I was making a mistake leaving my old job. I even contemplated going back. I made a few rookie mistakes. I was afraid I wasn’t able to deliver. I was basically too afraid to leave my comfort zone.
However, this is where I need to be. If I ever want to develop my skills as a designer and artist, this is the correct route to go. If I ever want to be more marketable from an employer’s standpoint, I am on the right path. If I want to better my social skills and expand my network, this is the right place to be. Most importantly, if I ever wanted to grow up & achieve things on my own, then I am doing what I should be doing.
I feel like I’m really growing into this a position already. I’m still getting used to the ropes, but it’s crazy exciting knowing that at the moment I’m managing a huge website for one of our larger clients.
And this is not anywhere near as stressful as last week. The stress has gone back down which is a grand thing. Car works lovely, commuting isn’t very bad, and I leave work pretty content with a mostly clear head. Everyone is pretty friendly too. I hope to connect and make friends with a few people.
Overall I am in the right field, I am on the right track, life is moving forward.